I find that when you turn something you’re passionate about into a habit, it can be quite easy to fall out of love with it. I’ve done it with writing novels, I’ve done it with learning the piano, and a while ago I did it with blogging. I didn’t stop blogging; I like routine, and I do like writing and once I dedicate myself to something that’s it, I’m committed. However, a while ago I lost that spark, that drive that made me smile every time I typed up a post and pressed publish.
It was fair enough; I was going through quite a hard time mentally, and I briefly felt like nothing I did mattered. It wasn’t the worst mental state I’ve been in, and I handled it a lot better than I usually do, but my blog didn’t feel the same anymore. However, over the last month or so I’ve ignored my stats, and done a lot less promoting than usual… Stopped trying to be what “a good blogger” is supposed to be, and got back to writing for me, and everything I loved about blogging has come rushing right back to me.
Looking back to what I started this blog for, it’s insane how far I’ve come. I created this site at the end of December because I wanted to write, and a blog was a place to do that. I didn’t think any strangers would willingly read my blog, let alone 200+ of you! I have over 200 people following me on here! That’s crazy! It’s hard to put it into words but I appreciate my audience so much because I never even thought I’d have one, so the fact that some of you are out here reading what I write means the absolute world to me, and I hope I keep providing the content that you came here for!
I’ve done things I didn’t even think I was capable of; A few weeks ago I worked with a brand to write my first ever sponsored post! Someone actually wanted to pay me to work with them and post something to my own blog! That’s so amazing and so unbelievable and ahhh it feels really surreal and I still can’t believe I got an opportunity like that. In my mind, I’m still the tiny blogger with like 5 followers who basically writes to no one, and I know in the grand scheme of things I’m still a “tiny blogger” because 200 followers is nothing compared to some people’s thousands… but wow. What I’ve managed to achieve with this little internet space in the last 9 months is more than I ever dreamed of. (Yes, this post is sappy and cheesy, I warned you in the blog header so deal with it).
I’ve recently realised that sometimes it takes looking back at where you used to be, to realise how far you’ve come. We often underestimate the progress that we make, and downplay our own achievement, but we shouldn’t! Any type of progression is amazing and should be celebrated, and we need to remember that! Looking back at my own progress with this blog has only made me want to work harder. I want to make better quality posts for you guys: I’ve been varying my content more, whilst still keeping it to stuff that I really love making, I’ve given my blog a real re-design to reflect my thoughts and feelings at the moment, and I’ve been using more advanced photo editing software (You probably can’t tell, I’m still getting the hang of it…). I was stuck in a rut for a while, but now the more I see myself succeeding, the more I want to push myself further, and I love this current mindset so much… Let’s hope it lasts.
In all honesty, I don’t know how long this momentum is going to last, because by the time this post goes up (yeah that’s right, I’m scheduling this like 3 weeks in advance, that’s how motivated I am right now), I will be a week away from starting my second year of Uni. However, I’m planning on staying super organised and on top of things this year, (If all went to plan, you should have seen that in my blog post on Monday), and hopefully I can bring that organisation to blogging too.
Running this blog was one of the best things I did this year, and I am so ridiculously grateful to every single one of you that reads it.
Lots of love,
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Hey, I'm Jasmine Burke. A girl in her twenties fresh out of Uni that's trying to write in any way that she can. I go under the branch of "lifestyle" but honestly, you can find pretty much anything on here.
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