A lot of the time we underestimate how hard it can be to be happy. We have moments of happiness, and bursts of joy. Some of us have them more often than others, but how often are we really content?
I have had long periods of time over the last few years where I’ve felt exceptionally low. I’ve also gone through months of being numb and unfeeling. However, within those were spatterings of happiness and joy, I’ve never considered myself bad enough to be deemed “depressed” (and I still don’t). In a strange turn of events I feel content with everything in my life for the first time since I was 12. I am in no way saying that my life is perfect. There will always be things I want to improve but I’m very appreciative of the good things in my life right now.
Why Are Things Good?
I have so much love in my life at the moment. My friends are amazing and since starting University last year I’ve had a stronger appreciation for my family. I have people – multiple people – that will go out of their way to make me happy. It honestly means the world to me.
I am busy with work, I won’t deny that (I’ve mentioned it in like every post I’ve done since Second Year started…). However, I’m also genuinely enjoying the things that I’m learning. Going to seminars and lectures aren’t a chore and even the essays aren’t too bad. I love what I’m doing and acquiring new knowledge. It sounds simple, but it’s actually made such a difference to my mood.
On top of that, I’m starting this amazing internship in a career that I’m strongly considering for my future! Life has been a whirlwind since I turned 20 but it’s been a pretty amazing whirlwind. I can feel myself getting stronger. Things that I used to cry about are met with nothing but an eye roll and a shrug nowadays. People can’t affect me the way that they used to. I’m too busy appreciating what’s around me to care. I’m probably the best place I’ve been in in a long time, and am so thankful for everything in my life right now.
Sometimes we underestimate how hard it can be to be content. I know that it comes easily to some people. However, I’m not one of those people, and have an odd sense of pride with how good my mind’s doing right now. I’m loving life, I’m smiling more, I’m crying less and I’m so much more appreciative of everyone. This toast isn’t intended to gloat, I simply wanted to share my thoughts on happiness.
As cliche as it sounds, things can get better when you least expect it. I’m very into appreciating the small things right now, and I’m so much better off for it.
Hope you’re all doing well! And if you’re going through a bit of a rough patch right now, I hope that you have the support and care you need.
Lots of love,