I’m back at you with another late night ramblings today (it’s been a while!) because… Well if I’m being honest, I didn’t have a post scheduled for today and I am about to start a very busy week so I figured I’d do some 1am stress typing.
I am very busy at the moment. I don’t think I’ve been this busy in a very long time, and every so often I worry that I’m spreading myself too thin, but I actually can’t stop. I’m taking on way more than I did last year: I have a bigger course-load, I’m making sure to do extra reading, I’m doing the newspaper thing (which takes up more time than you think), I have this blog, and I’m currently looking at internships. Throw in keeping up with friends and family and attempting to have a social life and you may wonder why my head’s not exploding… Trust me, I’m wondering too.
I read a post by my friend Eni a while ago about her addiction to excitement and honestly it really resonated with me. I stress so much when I’m busy and I drive myself crazy but I really do put this on myself. When I have nothing to do I feel… inadequate; I have to have some sort of passion project or something to work towards otherwise I feel incomplete. And lately, one thing doesn’t seem to be enough. I got this editor position and then I started looking for jobs and now I’m planning my future and taking on an award because I still don’t feel like I’m doing enough. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t have any time to do any more than I’m doing right now… Free time isn’t a concept that exists in my life at the moment, but it still doesn’t feel quite right.
I understand that this isn’t the biggest problem in the world; I’m getting everything done well before their deadlines and I actually haven’t had a breakdown yet… But I have a tendency to spread myself too thin and I’m worried that I’m going to do it again. I have a reading week next week (for non-Uni goers, it’s essentially a half term, but it’s supposed to be used for catching up on copious amounts of reading) so I guess I’ll get a break then? However, I’ll also have Newspaper lay-up deadlines and it’s Halloween so I’ll be going out and having fun with friends whilst simultaneously reading around my subject and planning essays in advance. Right now it feels like things just never stop happening, and a part of me loves it and thrives on it, but wow I’m exhausted.
I don’t quite know what this post was… It was pretty much just me freaking out about my busy schedule on my blog, but hey at least there’s a post coming out at the right time! How’s life going for you? I’d love to hear all about it in the comments!
Lots of love,
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Hey, I'm Jasmine Burke. A girl in her twenties fresh out of Uni that's trying to write in any way that she can. I go under the branch of "lifestyle" but honestly, you can find pretty much anything on here.
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