During my first year of University I flooded my social media with photos; I think I had an album of over 200 pictures with countless selfies and nights out and every little thing that happened… However this year I got to University and the posts decreased drastically.
It felt like, for the first year of University, I had to prove to people that I was having a good time, and make sure I was frequently posting selfies and outfits and showing myself looking “cool”. However, this year I’m so much more content within myself and I don’t have anything to prove anymore, I know that I’m having fun.
I felt the same way in the summer… Even though I posted a lot, because I was posting with such a different attitude. I had spent my time trying new things and going on new adventures and I took hundreds of pictures and captured every memory I could. I posted them proudly on social media and reminisced, remembering the tastes and smells and feelings every time I saw them. I didn’t need to prove that I was having fun, but I wanted to show off the moments that meant so much to me, and honestly it was a lot healthier for me.
You can see the progression of the attitude towards posting when you actually take a look at my feed; they move slowly from the closed mouth, serious-faced, “try-hard” photos of me trying to be what I thought people wanted to see, to the happy smiling photos, showing me goofing off with my friends and having fun. I don’t care as much about likes anymore, because I like the photos and that’s all that matters to me now, and I feel like my photos are actually doing better because of it. I may not post as often or with the same “cool” attitude as I did before, but I feel a lot more comfortable about my Instagram presence.
Social media doesn’t have to be the bad, “poisonous” thing that it’s made out to be in the media, nor does it have to be the perfect thing everyone tries to live up to nowadays. I use mine as a snapshot of some of my happy moments with my favourite friends and moments that mattered to me. I can scroll back through it and remember how I was feeling and what is important to me, and whether they get high engagement or not, I’m happy I posted them. I’m probably at the healthiest I’ve ever been with my attitude to social media and honestly it makes it so much more rewarding. If I post 5 times a week, so be it, and if I don’t post at all for a month that’s okay too. I’m enjoying getting back to using it for fun, and not to prove that I’m having fun. It’s honestly making me a better version of myself.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that others should post like that too – there’s nothing wrong with a club photo or a strategically posed, duck-faced selfie… I’ll probably still post them from time to time if they’re where I’m having the most fun. However, I found myself eventually posting them for the sake of it, instead of because that was where I was at my happiest. I used to think I needed the likes and the comments to bring me happiness, but I’ve realised that when you post a photo you’re truly happy with, the likes don’t matter half as much. It may have taken me a while to get here, but I’m so glad that I did.
This may have been a bit rambly – my more personal posts tend to end up that way, just finally clarified how I feel regarding social media and felt like I should post about it. What’s your relationship with social media like? Let me know in the comments!
Lots of love,
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