Do I live in the Future?

Do I live in the Future?

I wrote in my first ever post on here that I started blogging because I was at a point in my life where I was lost and had no motivation.  Since then, I’ve been given opportunities that I never thought I would, developed a whole different set of skills, and although I may not know exactly what I want to do with my entire future right now, I’m back to being filled with goals and ambitions.
While this is great and provides me with the energy I need to actually try to succeed, I’ve realised that I’ve started to spend a lot of time living in the future.  Not in actuality, obviously… Time travel hasn’t quite gotten there yet (As far as I know) but I’m a natural born planner, and so I let my future plans take over my life.  I keep various calendars (Blog post, personal, academic, one I share with my friends) for the various parts of my life and each of them are filled with different events and deadlines and things to work towards.  Whilst I love the organisation, and I love having something to work towards, I’ve been starting to notice that I spend my time focusing too much on the next looming date instead of simply living in the present.
For example, two days I found myself panicking because I hadn’t provided the details needed for a shift I’m supposed to work.  The shift doesn’t take place for another 20 days, and yet to me it felt like it was happening tomorrow.  I really have started to live my life already thinking I’m a month further on than I am because I’ve let the future overtake me, and so, the present, inevitably, doesn’t exist.  
When I think about it like that, I really hate it.  When did I get to the point where I was living so far in the future that I wasn’t taking advantage of the moment?  There’s nothing wrong with planning and there’s nothing wrong with organisation, but when planning for the future starts to take over your life it becomes a problem.  If you’re always looking to the next event, then you’ll never actually live your life, and I’m dangerously heading in that direction.  So now is the time to step back, still be excited for what the future holds, but embrace the present with just as much importance. 
Its time to start living for now, and not for one month or even one years time, so I’m going to make way more of a conscious effort to do that.
Just a small little one for this dreary Monday, but something that’s been on my mind for a while.
Lots of love,
Jas xx
 
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  1. February 5, 2018 / 4:47 pm

    Sounds exactly like me… I get so caught up in either planning, getting excited, or worrying about events in the future. Maybe if I just focused on the now I would be a much more confident person?
    Aleeha xXx
    http://www.halesaaw.co.uk/

    • February 5, 2018 / 6:15 pm

      I feel like it would be the same for me, so I’m trying very much to focus on the present
      Jas xx

    • February 9, 2018 / 10:06 pm

      I’m glad that you think so! We should definitely all try to enjoy the moment more.
      Jas xx

  2. February 9, 2018 / 9:46 pm

    I totally understand where you’re coming from. Planning is good and everything but too much does sometimes mean we don’t enjoy and actually appreciate the present.

    • February 9, 2018 / 10:06 pm

      Yeah exactly! It’s so hard to strike the balance and that is definitely something that I’m still working on.
      Jas xx

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