Imperfections

Imperfections

I’d be lying if I said I like, and have always liked, every single thing about myself.  I’ve had many an unhealthy relationship with my body and my face, and yes, I am probably at my peak of self-confidence, but I still have days where I question things about myself.  
Before blogging, whilst I took pictures of myself occasionally when I was with my friends, I never did it to the extent I do now.  I’ve gotten a lot more comfortable in front of a camera, and I’ll actually pose and enjoy mini photo shoots with my friends, but that doesn’t mean I’m 100% confident all of the time.  It sounds really weird, but I’ve really had to look at myself a lot more…  When you’re editing pictures, or sending them off, or choosing ones for your Instagram, you really end up getting all up close and personal with every aesthetic aspect of yourself.  I see every frown line, or angle that makes my head look weird, and though I try not to scrutinise or focus on anything too much, I can’t deny that I have things that I deem “flaws”.
I’ve never really liked my mouth.  I know that since Kylie Jenner, big lips have been all the rage, but still it never really helped me like mine.  Don’t get me wrong, it’s not a massive hatred, and most of the time they aren’t an issue for me at all, but my number one reason for deleting a photo of myself will be because my mouth looks weird in it.  When I’m pulling a neutral expression it looks too big for my face, and makes my face in general look really flat and if I had to change something about myself it probably would be my mouth, but the truth is, if I were actually given the chance to change it, I wouldn’t, because it’s MY mouth.  
I have a scar on my left eyebrow (Funny story about how I got it here) that basically means that my eyebrows will never be able to be perfectly shaped.  Sometimes I get really frustrated about it, because nowadays we tend to place so much emphasis on fleeky eyebrows… But again, it’s part of what makes me, me.  It’s a story that I’ve been able to tell since I was seven years old.  It’s a part of my history, and if my boy Harry Potter can rock an eyebrow scar then so can I.  I like to think about it as something that makes me different and as far as I’m concerned, it makes me at least a little bit more interesting.
I also have had eczema on my knees since I was a child.  Though it’s not as bad as it was when I was younger, it still means that I will never have perfectly smooth knees, and in the summer that tends to dawn on me.  When I was around 14 I decided that I could no longer wear shorts, mainly because of my knees (But also because I had some incredibly judgy friends at the time who thought that shorts were a bit too promiscuous).  But the more that I think about it, the more that I realise that nobody probably even notices the things I care so much about, and honestly I’ve never had anyone mention my knees.  To be honest, I can’t vividly picture the knees of anyone I know, because I’ve never really paid attention to them… And they most likely don’t either.
We all have things that we deem to be “flaws”, and that’s okay.  But the truth is, our flaws don’t define us, but they make us a little more interesting.  My scars come with stories and my insecurities come with the evidence that I can rise above them.  I am the way that I am, and every part of me, whether I like it or not, is still a part of me.  The truth is, if I saw a stranger walking down the street with a mouth I deemed “too wide”, a scar on their left eyebrow and eczema on their knees, I wouldn’t even think twice about it… Probably wouldn’t even notice.  So why do I care so much when I see them on myself?
Yes, of course I still have moments where I doubt certain aspects of myself, but I also love who I am, and that hopefully isn’t changing anytime soon.
Hope you enjoyed this!  Spread some love in the comments and let me know one thing that you love about yourself…
Lots of love,
Jas xx
 
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8 Comments

  1. February 26, 2018 / 5:19 pm

    This post was something I really needed right now, thank you for sharing! Sometimes my confidence can be so low because of the whole ‘imperfections’ idea that I can’t even leave my house.
    Aleeha xXx
    http://www.halesaaw.co.uk/

    • February 26, 2018 / 6:40 pm

      I completely get the imperfections taking over thing, and I’m glad that this post could help a little bit!
      Jas xx

  2. February 26, 2018 / 9:45 pm

    So true how people probably don’t even realize the things we constantly fret about. It’s a reminder on some days to just let it go. I love my smile, I think it makes me me and one of my best defining features lol xoxo

    • February 26, 2018 / 10:36 pm

      Awwww yeah it’s good that you can identify the factors that you love 🙂
      Jas xx

  3. February 26, 2018 / 10:33 pm

    I can actually relate to the mouth thing. My mouth is a KEY reason why I don’t keep most of my pictures. I have learned to love myself! But, I also still struggle with takin pictures on a regular basis. Great post hon! Very inspiring!

    • February 26, 2018 / 10:37 pm

      Thank you so much! Let’s hope we can both get loving our mouths 🙂
      Jas xx

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