As you may know if you follow me on Instagram or Twitter, I am officially done with University for the year, which means the start of a summer of rest and relaxation… Right?
In planning for my summer, I applied for a few opportunities that I didn’t think I’d get at all… They were long shots with hundreds of applicants and (As I’ve established many a time on here) I don’t consider myself anything special. However, I ended up being successful in all of them, which is absolutely amazing… But also a lot of work, which is only seeming to dawn on me now.
For somebody who has been balancing an in-term internship, blog, Youtube channel and degree all year, and has regularly admitted to being burnt out, I wasn’t supposed to end up with 10 free days from now until mid-July… And I’m starting to panic a little bit. I know that it will be amazingly fun and action packed, and when I actually think about what I am able to do this summer (All of which I will be covering on here and my Youtube channel,) it’s pretty incredible. However, at this rate, it looks like I will be going back to University in September still burnt out and searching for that break that I wanted in the first place…
I’m not trying to humble brag, and I know that this is probably quite a first world problem (Woe is me, my calendar is jam-packed with blog events, trips abroad and internships), but it doesn’t help the fact that I’m quite worried. I tend to put too much pressure on myself and as much as I like to be busy, I have spent most of this year being burnt out and disassociated… So jumping into a summer like this so quickly was not the best of ideas.
It will probably be fine. I need to keep reminding myself that everything that I’m doing is an amazing opportunity, and I should relish every moment of it… I just would also like to relish a couple of days in bed with Netflix and not a care in the world. I feel like my life is taking off faster than I am ready for it too… I’m losing control a little bit and I’m not quite sure how to handle that. But I will. It’s going to be fine. I’m going to be fine.
I put this out here because I feel like there’s so much pressure nowadays to have the perfect, carefree summer, and even when you seem to be living the dream, travelling from country to country it may not be as perfect as it seems. Just like any other period of time, there will be both high and low points; the sun doesn’t mean that all your worries suddenly disappear. I am slightly worried for this summer, and I am questioning when I’ll actually have time to chill, but that’s okay. That is life.
How’s your life going at the moment? Let me know in the comments,
Lots of love,
Hey, I'm Jasmine Burke. A girl in her twenties fresh out of Uni that's trying to write in any way that she can. I go under the branch of "lifestyle" but honestly, you can find pretty much anything on here.
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