How’s Life? | I need a break.

How’s Life? | I need a break.

I have many posts detailing how busy my year has been and how I really have just been waiting to finally have some down time… Yet here we are, almost 2 months since I started my summer and I have not had time to myself yet.  

Jetting from country to country to big internship sounds incredibly glamorous, and don’t get me wrong, I’m so grateful and in love with the opportunities I’ve had in the last 2 months… But I have come out of it all feeling incredibly overwhelmed. My trip to Chicago was a once in a lifetime kind of thing, but it also consisted of 9-5 uni work and then a rush in the evenings to explore as much of a city as I could in 6 days.  I then briefly came back home for 4 days in which I had to pack, unpack, see friends and go to the theatre (The last 2 weren’t chores, but still gave me no time to rest), and then head to Morocco.

Morocco was again, amazing, but I’m a naturally introverted person and having a third week in a row where I was out constantly with no real opportunity to relax and gather my thoughts led my brain to suffer massively.  Then, the icing on the cake was the journey back from Morocco, a trip down to Bristol to move into my house the next day, and then back to London for 2 weeks at the Guardian.  A fully functioning moderately “mentally healthy” version of myself would have struggled to deal with all of that at once, but a couple of weeks ago I was hit with a family crisis that played on my emotionally for the following time period.

Dissociation + exhaustion + no time to yourself + constant changes of scenery = my mind at breaking point.

Busyness is often sold as this amazingly cool thing and a sign of how put together and efficient you are, but honestly too much busyness is a terrible thing.  We can preach the importance of self-care as much as we want but the busier you get the more self-care falls to the wasteside.  I haven’t had time to look after myself and my needs throughout all of this, because everything that’s purely for me has felt like time wasting.  Lounging in front of the TV?  Should be blogging; you have posts to write.  Wanna take a bath?  Shower takes half the time and you have dinner to make.  Anything I want to do to take a little “Selfish time” out has felt incredibly wrong… And that’s not a good mentality to have.  It’s all fun and games to say that “We’ll sleep when we’re dead” but sleep is important, as is taking breaks for yourself.

I want to work on myself for a bit.  I get given this super long summer from University so that I can recuperate from the stress I’ve gone through during the year, so why haven’t I done that yet?  It’s okay to want to just do your own thing for a bit, and it is perfectly understandable to put yourself first.  I just have to convince myself of these things.

(PS. That doesn’t mean the blog posts/videos are stopping… Part of my “self-care” is actually dedicating more time to working on my blog, because it’s essentially my passion project.  Should I do a post on what “self-care” consists of for me?  Because it’s a lot different that your typical bath and facemask.)

Hope you’ve enjoyed this insanely stressful ramble… How are you doing?  Let me know in the comments!

Lots of love,

Jas xx

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  1. July 23, 2018 / 10:37 pm

    Sleep and looking after yourself is so important! (Though I sometimes forget that and end up with too much on my plate.) Hope you have a good summer focusing on you!

  2. July 24, 2018 / 8:29 pm

    Self care is so important and I’m glad that you’re taking some time to focus on that! Hope you feel less stressed and more yourself soon! xx

  3. July 24, 2018 / 8:32 pm

    That’s a really hectic schedule you survived through! Congrats for your fabulous internships. Take rest and give yourself some credit and ‘me time’ 🙂
    Love,
    Anjali
    https://www.laughingmirror.com/

  4. July 24, 2018 / 8:41 pm

    This is a very relatable post! I think sometimes we do so much that we actually forget about looking after ourselves. I work two jobs and the weekends I do all the things I can’t do during the week so it’s constant but I try to dedicate one day to do all my chores then the other just to relax and do what I want! Hope you get some time to relax, I think the self care post would be great x

    • July 24, 2018 / 8:43 pm

      Thank you so much, this was such a lovely comment! I hope you have time to take it easy too, having one day to relax is soooo important.
      Jas xx

  5. July 24, 2018 / 8:50 pm

    I hope you have a lovely well deserved rest Jasmine!
    I’d also love to hear a post about how you self-care, as I know a lot of people do it differently :’)
    Claire xxx
    http://eclairscares.blogspot.com/

  6. July 25, 2018 / 12:29 pm

    You definitely need a break! While your summer so far does sound exciting, I totally get that being too busy can be detrimental to your health. I hope you get to enjoy some more time to yourself before the end of summer x
    Sophie
    http://www.glowsteady.co.uk

  7. July 25, 2018 / 8:13 pm

    Blimey Jas! I’ve loved following you on a Instagram and seeing all these wonderful places and you sound like you’ve had some really incredible opportunities but my gosh it sounds hectic! You definitely deserve some well earned time to yourself! <3 xxx

    • July 25, 2018 / 8:24 pm

      Awww I’m so glad you’ve been loving my Instagram photos Jenny, you’re so kind! But yeah, enjoying the last few days to myself
      Jas xx

  8. July 25, 2018 / 8:26 pm

    100% relatable, and sometimes it’s okay to just relax whenever you have a little bit of time.
    The opportunities you’ve had sound incredibly fulfilling, yet tiring as well. Hope you’re able to relax now xx

  9. July 25, 2018 / 8:30 pm

    I can defo relate to this. While it sounds like from the outside you’re having the time of your life, actually internally you’re really struggling. You’re so brave for being so candid about it! Really admire you girl!
    Rosie

    • July 25, 2018 / 8:32 pm

      Thank you so much! That’s exactly why I started my “How’s life” series: to candidly talk about the bad, because it’s important to know that it exists in line with the good. Your comment is so lovely thank you <3
      Jas xx

  10. July 25, 2018 / 8:45 pm

    I completely agree with what you said about busyness. It gets glamorized so much, but too much of it is miserable and stressful. I definitely feel like I don’t remember to practice self care as much as I should when I’m super busy. I really enjoyed reading this post! Thank you for sharing!
    ~ Paige
    https://currentlylately.com

    • July 25, 2018 / 9:30 pm

      So glad you enjoyed this, and hope you also dedicate more time to self care!
      Jas xx

  11. July 25, 2018 / 8:51 pm

    I can definitely relate – you’re right, sometimes being busy isn’t a positive, and slowing down is better for us xx
    Alys
    https://alysjournals.com/

  12. July 25, 2018 / 8:56 pm

    Great blog post keep up the great work

    Jack Deyes
    jackdeyes.wordpress.com

  13. Katie Williams
    July 25, 2018 / 9:03 pm

    Soo relatable! Sometimes you need a bloody break! And don’t feel guilty about it either. Being busy isn’t always the best way and time for yourself is crucial for you mind and body. Hope you’re feeling more relaxed. I also love your style of writing, it is just pure honesty. Thank you
    Katie
    littlekaatie.com

    • July 25, 2018 / 9:44 pm

      Thank you so much! Been taking a break over the last couple of days and it’s been amazing!
      Jas xx

  14. July 25, 2018 / 9:42 pm

    I loved reading this post as I can truly relate. I feel my week is broken up into six week increments (I’m a teacher) so I truly look forward to those little breaks when one can just take it easy for a change. I hope you get some ‘me-time’ soon! xx

    • July 25, 2018 / 9:47 pm

      Thank you so much, I’ve been taking some time for myself over the last couple of days and it’s been great! Glad that you have your little breaks too!
      Jas xx

  15. July 25, 2018 / 9:48 pm

    Would love a post on self-care! This post is wonderful. It’s so easy to get caught up in being busy, and thinking that any time you relax you’re being lazy. But relaxation is so important. Hope you’ve got some time to wind down soon! 💛

    • July 25, 2018 / 10:04 pm

      Thank you so much! I’m treating myself to some downtime now
      Jas xx

  16. July 25, 2018 / 9:58 pm

    Great post and so important to talk about this topic. You’ve clearly got great awareness that you need some ‘you’ time and are taking steps to get that. Xx

  17. July 25, 2018 / 10:27 pm

    I think we all go through these stages you know. I’m happier when I’m busy – but that doesn’t work for all people. Find what works for you I definitely find blogging is therapeutic!

  18. July 26, 2018 / 12:10 am

    Love a good ramble i bet you feel better for it.
    Self care is so important so take all the time you need to look after yourself.
    This was a fab post and you’ve gained a new follower 🙂

    • thoughtsfromjasmine
      Author
      July 28, 2018 / 4:39 pm

      Awww thank you so much, I’m glad that you liked it!
      Jas xx

  19. July 26, 2018 / 4:38 am

    I think it’s very easy to forget about yourself. It’s always good to take a step back and take time to focus on your needs and wants.
    Great post
    Xo
    Stef I forkandveg.com

    • thoughtsfromjasmine
      Author
      July 28, 2018 / 4:38 pm

      Thank you!
      Jas xx

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