I’ve been back at Uni for a week, my course hasn’t even started yet, and I’m already giving up.
Having been away in London over the summer, I missed out on a lot of Bristol opportunities, so I scheduled a lot for when I got back. This week I had 9-5 training days with my Uni newspaper, followed by some sort of evening blog opportunity/social everyday. I spread myself ridiculously thin, I barely had time or energy to talk or reply to emails and, in turn, I am completely drained. I don’t have the same enthusiasm for my blog or blog stuff that I maintained throughout the summer. Everything I’m doing feels like a chore. In all honesty, this post today was supposed to be completely different. However, I don’t have the energy to write much, so I figured I may as well be honest.
Am I giving up?
I’ve mentioned many a time that I do this because I love to write. This blog is, in essence, a passion project, and any paid/gifted work is just an extra. Therefore, if I’ve lost the passion for it, surely the logical next step is to stop blogging?
I won’t lie, the thought of giving up did cross my mind. Not a resolution to stop completely, but I did think about just… not doing it for a while. I lay in bed this Saturday thinking “I should have something up this morning, but… Who really cares if I don’t? Who really cares if I never upload again?” And that’s when I had to bring some tough love into my own life.
Get yourself together Jasmine.
I know that I keep rehashing that this is a passion project of mine. However, that doesn’t change the fact that it still is a project. Projects take work, and force you to power through your dull spots to get to the magic. Nothing is happy and shiny 24/7, and honestly, it would be quite boring if they were.
During August I would sit at my laptop and do 9-5 working days on my blog. No, I may not have the time for that now, but I have resilience and time management, and that can get me through this tough time. I will be inspired again; I have amazing content planned for October, so I’m hoping to get writing that soon. I’m just overwhelmed at the moment, but that will stop.
Giving up is not an option (yet)
I’ve put too much into this to let one bad period of time deter me from growth. I think I’m really starting to come into my content and have my own real identity and I want to keep that going. Things come in waves, and right now I’m drowning. However, I won’t be drowning forever. Good things are still to come.
How are you doing at the moment? Let me know in the comments!
Lots of love,