I haven’t done a proper life update for a while now and, if you ask me, it’s much needed. As you’re reading this I’m on a coach on my way back to Bristol to start my final year of Uni. I don’t actually start until October, but, surprise surprise, I’m biting off more than I can chew and starting the year off with an incredibly busy week.
Why do I do this to myself?
Who knows? Honestly, it’s not really on purpose. I’ve spent (The majority of) the summer in my home in London, so I’ve had to pass down a lot of business opportunities in Bristol. Therefore, now that I’m back they’re coming in waves. In this coming week, not only do I have daily 9-5 training for the newspaper I write for, but I have 4 blog events/collaborations taking up my evening. I know that all of them are exciting, and things that I want to do. However, I’m already exhausted in advance.
The truth is, I’m still waiting for that moment that I get to sit down, rest and stay in one place. It was supposed to happen this summer, and then I was away loads or looking after someone or running errands. I haven’t really had that break I craved, and the year’s about to start. I won’t give the whole “Blogging is a lot of work, you don’t understand” speech, because that’s obvious. However, I will say that I now do the hours required of a full time job working on blog things, as well as balancing that with Uni and extra-curricular activities.
FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out)
I’m starting to find it really hard to live between Bristol and London, especially with the growth of my blog. This summer I got hit with a bunch of opportunities in Bristol, most of which looked absolutely amazing. However, as much as I tried to jet back and forth as often as I could, it wasn’t always feasible. I’ve had a serious case of FOMO this summer because I can’t be in 2 places at once, and I’m slowly starting to resent the travelling. I wish Bristol and London were closer or I had the ability to teleport, but that’s not how life works, so here I am.
What is this feeling?
There’s something making me incredibly anxious at the moment and I don’t know what. It’s like I have this constant creeping fear inside and I can’t get rid of it. I’ve sat down, thought things through – even made a diagram. However, I can’t quite figure out why I have this feeling. I’m hoping once I’m back in Bristol, settled in one place for a while the feeling will calm down. However, I honestly have no idea. Maybe I’ll have figured it out by the next life update post.
Like I said, I have had quite a few opportunities popping up recently. Prepare yourself for an October full of collaborations... It wasn’t necessarily planned that way, but I have been reached about quite a few cool things.
This post was, essentially, a load of word vomit and I’m sorry if it doesn’t make sense. If I’m being entirely honest, that’s just where my head is at right now. But, then again, that’s what this series is about. Life is full of the ups and downs, and right now is a bit of a jumble of both.
How’s life going with you? Let me know in the comments!
Lots of love,