As you may have gathered from my last post and lack of posts since, I got home and took a nice long break. I took pressure off myself, relaxed, and honestly I haven’t stopped smiling since. I was able to take a couple of steps back from everything and reevaluate my prioties and thought patterns. So, I thought I’d write myself a little list of things to remember for my mental health. Hopefully, I can refer to this list when I have my next internal freakout (I most definitely won’t).
Everytime I come home, I’m reminded of how amazing the people in my life truly are. My family are everything and the strongest support system I could ask for, my sister’s a cutie who designs phone cases for me, and I have never had friends I feel so comfortable around. These people are always there for me and I genuinely feel myself smiling more around them. Obviously I am always appreciative of them, but in times of doubt and grossness I need to remember what a strong support system I’m surrounded by.
I put so much pressure on myself to stick to my schedule. I’ll stay up until 4am because I didn’t have time with Uni, or I’ll feel sick to my stomach until my upload’s ready. Next year I want to be better at understanding that I can’t treat this like a full time job when I’m studying full time. Obviously I’m still going to try to stick to my schedule, but I have a really lovely readership that don’t berate me for not uploading. I actually have a surprising number of people that will check in on me if I haven’t uploaded in a while, but it’s always done in a caring way.
I’m not perfect and I never claim to be, but man, I am so hard on myself. I want to be kinder to myself when it comes to my expectations next year.
I’m pretty good at taking care of myself, but when I fall, I fall hard. I had a week in October where I rarely moved from my bed. 2 of those days I didn’t eat at all, and I’m pretty sure I showered maybe once in that time period. I was going through a really bad time and I really just didn’t care. But I want to be better at putting self-care at the forefront, especially when I’m down. Even if that’s as simple as showering and eating.
You may remember that in September I had a bit of a money panic, and since then I haven’t really spent anything on myself. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve bought food and paid bills and travel and school supplies. Also, I’ve paid to replace jeans and trainers because I count those as “necessities”. However, I haven’t really had a treat yo’self moment. I used to love sale shopping or buying the occasional cute dress, and I want to get back to that. I don’t intend to become a shopaholic or anything, but I deserve the occasional treat.
I swear, I’m such a bully to myself sometimes. I’m more than enough and I may not be perfect but I can be pretty great. I need to remember that.
It sounds like something your mum would say to coax you into cleaning, but it really works. I always feel like I have my life together if my rooms tidy, and I don’t tidy it nearly enough. I want to get better at that.
It can be hard to make yourself a priority, especially when you’re going through a rough patch. I’m hoping that these will help me in the future, and I’ll let you know if they do.
Let me know what you thought of this! It was a little different!
Lots of love,
Hey, I'm Jasmine Burke. A girl in her twenties fresh out of Uni that's trying to write in any way that she can. I go under the branch of "lifestyle" but honestly, you can find pretty much anything on here.