What do you do when you’ve left Uni with no career lined up and no real drive to jump into one? Introducing: The Year Out.
I’ve been in education consistently since I was 5. My brain is frazzled, I feel incredibly drained, and – though I wasn’t ready at the time – there’s a part of me that resents having never had a gap year. So, I’ve decided to spend the next year exploring everything I’ve wanted to creatively with minimal distraction. It’s probably gonna be hard and financially stressful, but I think it’s needed. As is documenting the highs and lows on here. I miss the days when most of my blog posts were rambly diary entries, and whilst my writing style has definitely evolved, you can’t go wrong with a good bout of word vomit. So, I want to do little monthly recaps, highlighting my highs and lows, and where my head’s at.
It’s a little scary saying it, but this might be the happiest I’ve been in 3 years. I’m at piece with a lot of things I didn’t think I’d get over, I’m settled in one place, and I’m living in an environment I feel comfortable and safe in. This month has been a fantastic one for my happiness, and I am beyond excited for what this summer has in store. However, I have also experienced a bit of a mental fuzz.
Coming home from Uni has been incredibly freeing and fantastically busy. But it’s also left me wondering about things in my life. I’ve always been the planner, and the one that arranges and organises plans for people, and it’s really starting to take a toll on my own mental health. My busyness has left me feeling like if I don’t make the plan, then nothing will happen. In all honesty, I’ve felt like that for a while (over a year or so) now, and it’s really taking a toll on me. I no longer have the energy to chase people up or remind people of things constantly, or make effort when I feel like it’s not being reciprocated.
It has left me in a bit of a weird funk. However, with the introduction of new environments and situations in my life, it’s been incredibly easy to focus on the positives and move on to fresher, more equal situations.
I said at the beginning of the year that this was the year that I wanted to focus on my fitness more. I’d shed my disordered eating habits and unhealthy attitude to fitness, and I was ready to do things properly. That went incredibly well… For a while. But then exams hit. I won’t act like it was a negative, because I know that if I need a break, then I need a break, and I’m trying not to be too policey with my fitness. So the eating got heavier and the working out got lighter, and that was okay.
Now that exams are over and I’m back in an area and situation that I love, it’s easier to focus on the physical aspect of my wellbeing again. I spent a lot of June celebrating the end of Uni, and being wrapped up in a whirlwind of activity, so again, it wasn’t my top priority. However, as the novelty of my new London life is dying down, I’ve been able to readjust, and focus on making time for fitness again. Expect more fitness content in the coming months!
It’s no secret that my blog took a massive hit at the beginning of this year. My two dissertations and exams and all-round mental health had to take priority. Plus, if I’m being honest, I fell out of love with the whole thing. However, as emphasised by the happy-go-lucky post that I started the month with, I’m back to being in love with it. I’ve had a flood of ideas, gotten back into the brand-work game, and genuinely just been excited about creating again. Which is incredibly refreshing.
At the start of May, I was entirely convinced that for the summer at least, I was going to spend my time worrying about money. I’d had my last maintenance loan, I had nothing but freelancing lined up, and my blog had taken a massive nosedive during exams. However, towards the end of May, I saw an advert on Twitter for my dream part time job, applied (with absolutely no relevant experience, but a somewhat plucky attitude) and ended up getting it. So, for the past month, I’ve been working as a part-time Barista at the theatre cafe: the musical theatre themed cafes in central London, run by London Theatre Bookings.
I absolutely love it. The people are amazingly welcoming, the atmosphere’s great, and I get to sing along to showtunes all day at work… The ideal situation for me. A part of me almost wishes I’d agreed to do full time instead of part time, but if I’m doing this year out, I wanna at least attempt it properly.
I want to use this series to not only track my activities and wellbeing, but my financial situation and productivity. So, here’s a breakdown of this months progress:
Ladyboys of Bangkok (press night)
Fame (press night)
Rocky Horror (press night)
The Love Island board game
“Other” can include anything from money given to me by family/friends, to me selling things, to a scratchcard… Basically anything that doesn’t fit another category. This month, the bulk of it was from the return on my deposit from my Uni flat.
June really felt like a new leaf for me. Not only did I leave Uni, but I settled back at home, found a job, made new friends and generally just felt happy. I can’t wait to see where the rest of the year takes me, and I’m excited to document it on here.
How’s your June been? And what do you think of this new series? Let me know in the comments!
Lots of love,
Hey, I'm Jasmine Burke. A girl in her twenties fresh out of Uni that's trying to write in any way that she can. I go under the branch of "lifestyle" but honestly, you can find pretty much anything on here.
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